Projecting

I used to project into the future. Things were stable and under my control. My children were small and my parents were my age. I expected things to flow along normally and they did. When I got up, I knew the day would be easy. When I went to sleep I was able to rest my head without worry. Now when I get up, my day doesn't start until I hear my father say he is okay. When I go to bed, I pray that the phone will not ring in the middle of the night saying that he is not well. I look at the day, not the week. I look at the moment, not the future. Maybe that is the best way to live life. I believe that is a Buddhist philosophy. Live in the moment.