Dreaming

Every night I dream. I solve the world's problems and figure out the meaning of life. Then I wake up and forget what happened. Last night I had many odd dreams. In one of them, I was on a beach and looking for a bathroom. For some reason, bathrooms are common dreams. As I was standing on the bathroom line, I started talking to the women ahead of and behind me. I said that the bathroom line for the women's room is an "ancient ritual" Everyone seemed to love that statement and it opened up a conversation. We all agreed that if the line was long and slow, people would start talking to each other and bond. These would be people that we normally would never speak to. The concept was astounding and I felt like Socrates. Then I woke up with a headache and went about my day.

Layers

It is bitterly brutally cold out there. Colder than I ever remember. I need to hang on until Wednesday when warmer weather will arrive. Until then I will layer. I will wear as many layers as I can put on without choking myself. I might walk funny, but at least I will be warm.

Download

There is a rule in my house that my husband is not allowed to do anything "fancy" on the computer. By "fancy" I mean anything other than read email and look on ebay. Anytime he does more than that he creates a problem that takes me a while to shovel out of. He is expecting a package and wanted to track it. Without asking me, he tried to locate his package. Instead he went in to a phony browser and changed my computer's defaults. This comes on the heels of last week's fiasco of him getting into another site that froze the computer and then he called the 800 number to discuss it. Thankfully he hung up the phone without giving information and it only took me 1/2 hour to set the computer right again. This was at 11pm. Last night's problem was fixed after three tries and we reviewed his computer rights. I hope that he listens this time as I am getting tired of being a computer tech.

Day Off

I did not go to work today. I never even got up to look outside and make that decision. The decision was made last night. Years ago I would wait until the morning to evaluate the situation. The new me doesn't. I will no longer go to work in inclement weather. I think of my own safety and well being first.

Not Here, Not There

It is the first week of January. This is a month that is not here and not there. It is a simple, boring month. There are no holidays to look forward to and prepare for. The next holiday is Valentine's Day and that is a month away. January is almost a sad month. It has the holiday let down and the nothing to look forward to feel. If you mix it with freezing cold and possible snow, it almost wears a frown. Poor January.

Deep Freeze

We are still in a deep freeze. Today starts the 2018 work year and the weather is not helping things. I am still on the hunt for the perfect receptionist and I have an interview set for today. I am betting that she does not show up. She was a bit distracted on the phone call when we set the appointment so I do not have any confidence that she will come in. Years ago I would care. In 2018 I do not. 2017 was a deal changer in my office. It showed that the income from a crazy doctor was more important than the happiness of loyal workers. You reap what you sow and the only thing that is being sown in ambivalence.

2018

It is the first day of 2018 and other than the calendar, nothing has changed. It is still cold outside. The Yahoo news is scrolling the same nonsense that it did yesterday. I will still be going out food shopping in an hour. I like it that way. I have realized over the years that I like simplicity and consistency. It is easy to please me. Basically leave me alone and don't screw up my things. I did not need much in 2017 and will not need much in 2018. The things I need are health and family and enough money to make ends meet. That's it. The clothes I wear or the shoes on my feet need to fulfill one purpose and that is to keep me warm. My house needs to keep me safe and sheltered. My family needs to give me love. If given the chance to change places with a billionaire, I would decline. All of their money could not give me more than I already have.